Miyerkules, Marso 21, 2012

FORGET HIM-- UNKNOWN

Forget his name, Forget his face
Forget his kiss, Forget his warm embrace
Forget the love that you once knew
Remember he has chosen new.


Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget how close you once were
Remember he has chosen her.


Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away.


Forget his laugh, Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight.


Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved its past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember he's gone forever. 

LOST LOVE(DCML16)

It's been 4 years already when I let my great love gone way. It hurts me so much for I know that I exchanged his Love for just my Infatuation to another guy. If given a chance, I would trade 10 000 tomorrows for just 1 single yesterday. It's the biggest REGRET that I ever felt in my life.
          It was November 22, 2006 when I first saw him at the hallway. I was really mesmerized by him and the way he smiles to his friends. After that moment, I cannot stop myself thinking about him. That’s why I studied very hard to be able to please him for I thought that He likes intelligent girls.
But after that, I didn’t got any chance to see him. The worst part is, I didn’t even know his name. Thanks to my friend that he knows his name and on February 23, 2007 I already know his name J
I was in second year high school when I saw him again during our flag ceremony. It was July 2, 2007 when in my surprise, my bestfriends knew about him and they can’t stop their selves in teasing me.
August 7, 2007 when someone texted me “HI”. I didn’t replied to the text message that I received then the unknown sender texted again that he would call me if I didn’t reply to his message. Hehe .. and I didn’t replied again to be able to hear the voice of the unknown sender. Then he called and said HELLO then put the phone down. Hmmm…
The next day, the unknown sender texted me that it was him. That it was DCML16. Then I replied of course. It was one of my happiest days. It feels like I’m dreaming and if it was a dream, I don’t want to wake up.
August 9, 2007 when he asked if he can court me. He said that he feels the same way that I do. I do like him so I said yes he can.
Every day he makes me feel special. I don’t know how, when, where and why but I already set my mind that he is the one I’m going to marry someday. Maybe because It’s the magic of Love. He is my life, My world. No matter what happens, I’m not going to let him go.
September 16, 2007 is the day when I decided to be officially with him. It’s the rightful decision I ever made on my Life. From that day on, I didn’t have any regret of answering him. He is my one great love. I love him more that my life. Every day is special, wonderful and magical. Everyone in my class was very happy for me for they know that he will never tried to hurt me.
We go together every recess, lunch break and even at the end of our class. He always waits for me because of my extra-curricular activities. He then take me home and after that he always talks to me over the phone. I even sleep while the phone is on my ear. He always wanted me to tell him a story before he go to sleep- OUR STORY. Then gives comments and laughs. I remember one time when I told him that I have a song dedicated to him entitled FOR ALL OF MY LIFE. Without knowing, he searched then for the lyrics of it and in my surprise he said I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. He then told me what’s happening when I said I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU EVER KNOW. WHY?? Hhe :*  Then he dedicated a song for me entitled NGITI and he sang it over the phone. I was blushing on the other line. But our fairytale suddenly turns into a nightmare. I was blinded by another guy whom I thought is much better than him. I BROKE UP WITH MY PRINCE L (January 9, 2008). And I can say that it was my biggest MISTAKE I ever made in my entire life. The promises I made was broken when that guy entered our life. Because I was blinded with my Infatuation with him, I didn’t realized what will I lost If let my great love go. My prince asked for a second chance but I refused him.
Now, I realized all my mistakes in love. I let him go, exchanged him for a guy whom I thought would be better than him but then will only CHEAT on me. I want a second chance with my prince but I think it would be impossible. He is happy now with his new life. Well, right now, I will just hope for a someday that we can be together. If not, I would wait for another lifetime, This time, it would be forever. In our another world, we would be together and wouldn’t let my mistakes to be repeated.

MANLOLOKO


                Bakit kaya may mga taong kagaya niya na manloloko??? Hilig lang ba niya ito o talaga lang gustong- gusto nyang makakita ng taong umiiyak at nasasaktan?? Ang masaklap, AKO pa ang napili. Bakit nya ako pinaasa eh wala naman pala syang balak ituloy?? Bakit nya kaya nagawang baliwalain ang pagmamahal ko e binuhos ko naman ang lahat sa kanya? Kailan kaya mauubos ang mga katulad nya? Kailan kaya ako makakahanap ng taong tutumbas sa pagmamahal na ibibigay ko?? Kulang pa ba ang pagmamahal ko para masaktan ako ng ganito?  O talagang mali lang ang taong pinag- alayan ko?? LECHE :P

MARTYR'S LOVE LIFE

                When you’re in love, you’re willing to sacrifice and do anything as long as you can even though you feel so bad and hurting so much. You’ll just ignore it just to let that love to last.
                When you’re in love, there’s no such things as negativity. You will only see the good things in that person.  Though he’s making you a fool obviously,  you’ll just ignore it and you still have the courage to think it positively.
                Are martyrs like me can be considered as a saint for loving so deeply and without limitations? Am I a fool to let myself be happy even if I know that he is betraying and cheating on me?
                I’m happy being together with him. For these moments I really cherished and hope that it will last a lifetime. Living, Laughing, and Making a family with him are what I always wish everytime I sleep.
                But then one night, He confessed something to me. He said that he didn’t really love me that’s why he is now leaving me. I don’t know what to say, even what to do. I just smiled at him, give him what he wants, turn back then cry in silence. It’s hard to accept the truth between us. That I have to let him go and accept that its only that’s hurting too bad.
                This ended the lovestory of mine. My dreams, together  with my heart, ended. Now, the only thing that I must embed in my mind is the word ”MOVE ON” and “NEVER BELIEVE IN LIES”.